as long as no one who lives with you figures it out, it's still a secret

well i did finish it, and it turns out it was about a lot more than kissing a sixteen-year-old. it was partly about how sometimes when you try your absolute hardest to be a good person, terrible things still happen (i know all about that), and also how a certain code of morals that includes chivalry and an appreciation for the outdoors is somewhat obsolete (although i'm not one for camping, i know a little bit about that). it made me cry really hard and now i'm going to go take a shower so no one can tell.