Saturday

dear reptilian civilian

i see you saw that i'm not that into you guys. that's fine. i'm not. i'm pretty sure you don't give a damn about my opinion anyway. i am a little sorry i called you "local retards," but remember, that's only one person's opinion, one that you don't care about. and the frontman does kind of look like a retard when he takes his shirt off. i mean, you've all got to know that already, so it's not that big a deal to say it. on the plus side, you guys have some really great hookups in terms of the shows you play. that must be really fun for you. see you around the bear paw.

in other neews, i'm now an intern at tin house magazine.

Friday

heading home

i'll be there tonight. i love little vacations, and shepard's pie.

Thursday

dear tiny readership

here is the wikipedia article on just war. it's interesting that it was developed and then polished by people of faith, yet our president who claims his own faith as a value has so blatantly ignored it. last resort? right.

i've been having a lot of debates about faith lately. it's difficult because i'm not all that sure where my own opinion comes out, so talking about it to someone who thinks religion shouldn't exist at all, i feel a little picked on. i understand that there are zealots going out of control, and that sadists claiming to perform the will of or do things in the name of god, a god, or gods have been the driving force behind the majority of human catastrophe. but i also feel that faith can be a uniting force, and that any system of belief that encourages people to act kindly towards each other can never be a bad thing whether it turns out to be true or no. the argument on the opposite side is that the everyday people who are just trying to lead good lives don't do enough good to balance out the crazies in powerful positions, and so religion should be eradicated altogether, by way of a public interrogation of religious figures culminating in a. their humiliation b. a lack of proof that god exists, therefore proof that he doesn't and the simulaneous rejection of faith by people all over the world. of course, this will never happen, so why do i always get up in arms? because i think it's a terrible thing to believe. so there.

Sunday

get it together, movies

so i went to another movie by myself today. again, totally awesome. i laughed any time i wanted to without worrying about whether the person i was with thought i was a nerd. as it happened, the nerd next to me and i laughed at all the same times. i saw omega man, which was great. i am way into that post-apocalyptic stuff. i like to think of them as training films, with a plot. each one is another possible eventuality i have to prepare for, at least emotionally. charlton heston was killer and there were lots of interracial makeouts with one of those 70's afro women.



two things, though. i am pretty tired of visual cruxifiction references. i am also tired of every movie happening in new york. what has happened in san francisco that didn't suck? it's a pretty short list: the graduate, mrs. doubtfire, the rock. a lot of movies happen in fantasy places (hook, labyrinth), some in foreign lands (mad max, road warrior, beyond thunderdome, ninja turtles III) and a few in london (human traffic, 28 days later). a very few happen in the wildnerness (homeward bound) and a couple in suburbia (bill and ted, donnie darko), but other than that pretty much every movie takes place in new york (ninja turtles I and II, spiderman I, II, and more than likely III, pretty much everything else). why is that? if most movies are made in la, why do they take place in new york? life happens plenty of other places too.

friday night was pretty much fine

it was fine, with very little eye contact and a lot of sweaty hands on my part but pretty fine. it was nice to see these people i've been scared of for almost two years now because they have changed too. they've gained weight and gotten balder, adopted makeup styles that make their eyes look small and piggish and grown small social awkwardnesses of their own. they're just people, after all.

jake and i have this friend. he knows every little band in this town. as a natural extension of his ability to schmooze and through schmoozing bring people together, he's starting to plan parties. last night jake and i went to a party he had planned. as it turned out, so did an entire high school. it was hilarious to fall back into an old habit of making fun of an entire room of people at once, but i just hope no one got in trouble.